Frozen?

Well, I'm cold. I want to be in my bed, under my electric blanket. But instead, I'm blogging.

Some silly things that have been said/done to me at work recently.
Today, two men pull up to the window. The man in the passengers seat says "how tall are you?" Me " about 54" Man driving "wow you're small." WELL DUH. Did you need to know how tall I was to get that conclusion? Because I'm pretty sure you should have been able to figure it out by looking at me.

I'm stocking front counter, that involves moving boxes back and forth for the back. Well one of the men in the back stops me to say "you have something on your pants" Oh thanks I think, until I realize its on my butt. Gosh!

I was singing :) to this girl I work with, Sarah. I started dancing, and as I backed up got wacked in the head with a bucket of ice OUCH!

Next day, I'm working back drive. I slam my head on the window. Momentarily lose vision. As it returns the lady at my window is giving me the rudest glare. "Yes ma'am, I did that to make you late". Some people are just stupid.

I'm getting the food for drive through, this man pulls up and waves at me. I'm like who the heck are you? He keeps waving. I look to make sure no ones behind me that he could be waving at. Nope. I give him the Gabby glare. He start shaking his finger at me, UHM whose the creeper here?

There is so much more, I'm usually laughing while I'm there. I talk to myself a lot! Not on purpose, people just don't listen to me.

I've been all about listening to music lately. All the time. It helps keep me focused. So that I don't zones as much. I still do a bit, just not as much.

I'm off for at least 3 days. It will be nice. So maybe I'll have some interesting posts up in the next couple of days. :) If we get pictures New Years Eve. I will post them. Yeah, I know I say that ALL the time. One time I really will.
*Gabs

Debi

Well, I just got off work... Like an hour ago I guess. I left my drink downstairs:(! Took a nice shower. And making my headache worse with the blaring Lady Gaga. But enjoying it nonetheless.

So since this is my blog. :) Wait you already knew that. I should have some interesting posts, right? So let me try. Oh! One thing first! I am so badly wanting a hard cover copy of Gullivers Travels by Johnathan Swift. A nice one. Or really old one. The ones on Amazon don't have pictures :(! So if you know where I can find one, or have one you'd sale me. Let me know! That was the only thing I asked for for Christmas, but my mom couldn't find one. So I had the figure out something different to want!

Okay my mind tonight, is a bit random. But I'll share it anyway. This is what I'm thinking-
Debi, how do you get me to talk? what is it about you that makes me feel okay pouring out my soul? There isn't much about me I haven't told you. While I absolutely love that you have this sense about you that allows me to feel safe talking, it scares me. It's not me? I don't noramlly warm up to people quickly at all. I love that you were a person I did. Whats the point of this? There really isn't one. I just want to give credit where credit is due. Debi, you are an amazing person. Your faith in God is incredible. I'm so blessed to have you in my life. Please never leave. I think that's what I'm most scared of, losing you. The thought of it almost makes me cry. I know that's silly. But it's true. I've grown mighty fond of you! I think your thoughts are rather genius! I love that you are such a positive person. I'm not! But you know that!!


Well thats the end of my Debi rant. :) For tonight. I'm going to go downstairs and get me drink. Then maybe have some icecream and watch some tv. Have a good night! *Gabs

I baked cookies, with an Elf, in wal-mart, because I'm sexy and do what I want.

Uhm sure okay, that was the result of a forward I just got. It's kinda amusing. Though, usually, with any quiz I take it get "rehab is for quitters" nice right?


I'm really tired tonight. Worked almost all of my shift, which made me real mad. They wouldn't let me work last week because of the stupid mouth sore, I have another one, what does he say today? I'll just put you in back drive. AHHHHH!!! Seriously? I missed all that work for no reason? Annoying.


I'm going to bandage my face, and go to bed with Bones. Night*Gabby

Don't break my heart

Me at my sisters wedding, cleaning up after.


I'm feeling... Well confused.... A 5 hour chat last night. But he doesn't want commitment while in Kuwait. He wants it when he get home in April, maybe even to a new level? I really like him, a lot. I wouldn't say I'm in love with him. But maybe starting to love him? This whole business is so sticky. I really don't know how he feels about this all. Other then he will commit when he gets home. But does he want to? Does he what me as badly as I want him? Is he what God has planned for me? Where do I draw the line? Am I just wanting him because deep down I know it probably won't work out? Am I looking to be hurt? If he does hurt me, what then? Will I be able to handle it? How many times do I let him hurt me before I move on?

All those questions are swimming around my head. None are being answered! *Gabby

Before

Before I write this, I'm gonna take a shower. Eat some pizza. Relax.


Okay, today well it was just another day.

Well this post is just not wanting to leave my head, not just yet. Maybe tomorrow.*Gabby

I am... Blogging!

Photos- Top, Debi and I at the hospital- Bottom, my nephew Carter.(So funny)

So... I need to get my mind straight. It's really messed up today. And every other day. I feel so very confused. I've been trying to figure it all out, but I can't. I feel like everything is being mixed up. I don't care for it! My fingers smell like garlic! That's kind of nice. But other then that, things just don't feel okay.

Okay, I've been writing this post for a few HOURS. How sad is that? I just really don't know what to say. There's so much on my mind, that I don't know how to blog. So this will be jumpy tonight as I will just write whatever I think.

Okay first off, I'm stressed. I spent WAY to much on Christmas. Now I have no money. It's completely MY fault. I will admit that openly. But that doesn't fix it. It doesn't help that I have only work 4 hours this pay period because of the stupid mouth sore. Yeah, I'm serious. They don't want me to spread it to the costumers. So I've been home.

Today I went in and told my boss I still had it. He was rude. Seriously, like it's my fault? I had to get someone to cover my shift, which was stupid, either way I wasn't gonna work. SO I call pretty much everybody that wasn't already working, finally, the last person said yes. Ah more stress.

I was stupid. Looked up causes of all my symptoms. Now I'm silently freaking out. There's a few that are real bad, I'm even more stressed. Anxious for whats to happen. Annoyed that my appointment is not for 2 months! Really I have to live with this for another month and a half? Can I handle that? I'm not sure.

On a plus note. I'm watching hockey and the team I'm going for(Sharks) is winning 5-0! They got 2 goal in 15 seconds. It was marvelous ! They aren't my team. But they're my moms and I don't mind watching them. I love the Red Wings. With a passion that burns deep in my soul. Okay maybe that was just a bit dramatic :)!

I'm gonna stay on this note for a minute. We had a wonderful Birthday dinner for the twins. I ate more cake, then dinner:)! But hey, it works. Think about eat some more dinner. I really should as I'm down 2 more lbs.

Okay moving on. As I just said, I'm DOWN 2 more lbs. I'm still at an okay weight. But won't be for too long. 10 more lbs and they will most likely put a tube of some sort in. Considering I've been losing at least 3 lbs a week, that wont be very long. But that's just my thoughts, it could be different.

Okay I'm now going to be weird but please respond! If you don't know the terms, google them.
Would you rather have a NJ tube, GJ tube, or a PICC line? I have bad memories for all and can't decide!

So Wednesday, I took some treats to a friends mom that was in the hospital. While in her room the Drs name that is too painful to type was mentioned quite a bit. Every time it was, I couldn't breathe for a minute. It was awful. No one is aloud to go to that hospital ever again, I don't think I can do it again.

I'm praying for no nightmares! But have to go to bed as I need to be up early for church! Goodnight! *Gabby

P.S. Yes, this post took over 5 hours. Sad I know. Finally got it to upload pictures though!

GOSH... Christmas?

Okay, this was going to be a wonderful Christmas post. But now I'm stressed. I was very excited. Then I checked my bank account. Now I've very stressed. Spent way too much on Christmas. :(. Now I have no money until the 5th. Sad.

I know I shouldn't stress about it, but I do.

Secondly, I was trying to convert my new bones dvds to files that could be put on my Ipod. But it would only convert 5 minutes of each one... AH ANNOYING.

I'm not trying to say I'm not greatful for today. Boy am I. I'm just a little grumpy, or a lot. I'm so tired. I woke up around 6am. The kids didn't get up until we woke them at 8am. But I couldn't sleep :)! For a person who doesn't get up before 9am like ever, it makes for a rough day. I've been nauseous pretty much the whole day:(. I was last year to. Just skipped the throwing up multiple times like last year. But it makes for a pretty rotten day. I dozed on the couch for a couple hours before everyone got here. It helped my mood. Luckily, I can feel like dirt on the inside without showing it at all on the out. But overall, it was a wonderful day. I enjoyed myself some. I love being with family.


Something that I haven't gotten to talk about yet, the best Christmas present, EVER. Tuesday night after the long hours at the hospital. We drove to layton, I got to see my IRL childhood bestie. Rebekah! Oh my goodness It was absolutely wonderful. Neither on of us talk much, So we go together quite nicely... She gave me a cute little cold stone lip balm, cotton candy flavored, which happens to be my favorite flavor. And said she was gonna sketch me while she is here! Oh goodness! Can't give me anything better then that. A piece of her! Thanks Reb!

I will try to post a picture of it when she does. But my computer hasn't been willing to upload anything to anywhere. Sad day. It fails at life.

So something is "a stir" in my life. That, I think, I'm excited about! I keep going back and forth. I wanted to at least finish my pre-reqs first but, whatever happens happens. It's too early to post about it though.

Wow am I tired. I need to soon, go curl up under my new electric blanket, put in bones and sleep away. With a little help from trazadone of course.

I'm chatting with an old friend. Or ex-boyfriend. Friends first, friends now. We don't talk very often. But for some reason, now, he wants to. So here we are, IMing on facebook. Thats how I keep in contact with a lot of people.

Oh and guys are stupid and have cooties. SO stay away from them! Merry Christmas. *Gabby