Monday, May 23, 2011


My mom before the show. 

I love my eyes here. Something about them just ah. Loverly. 

I can be a very introverted person. In fact, I usually am. I don't enjoy talking. I know I'm a girl and really it should come naturally and be a hobby, but it doesn't and it's not. I have many conversations in my head. They are good conversations too. The kind you want to have. They touch so much deeper than the everyday how are yous?

All dress for Lady Gaga
I realized I hadn't really talked about going to see Lady Gaga in March. My mother and I went, before we started fight. Like a day before. It was awesome. She really puts on a fun show. And who doesn't love being able to dress up all crazy like? I really had an awesome time!

Okay, I have a thing about being polite. Especially to workers at places I go. Not so much to average joes on the street. But I find more I more that I want to apologize for the actions of complete strangers. Like I'm offended to be known as human because of them. I hate it. There is just so much uncalled for cruelty these days. It really makes me tick!

This weekend I'm going out of town. Oh, wait back up. I'm now living in Utah. Working as a live-in Nanny. Okay, back to present thought. This weekend there is a Church thing in Idaho so me and some girl friends are driving up. I'm so excited. It's gonna be so much fun. I love being on the move. Don't so much like car rides. But, seems inevitable when going anywhere far these days.

Oh, exciting bit of news. I road on public transit a few weeks ago. Only the second time ever, I know I'm spoiled. But really I grew up in a town you could walk across its entirety in an hour. Not much public transit there. The other time I was with my mom after the Lady Gaga concert. Some guy tried to pick me up. It was rather funny. Made a comment about pole dancing. I'm like "Hello ---->>> Mother right there..." Some people are just stupid. ****NO I WOULD NOT HAVE GONE WITH HIM HAD MY MOTHER NOT BEEN THERE. JUST MADE IT EVEN WORSE THAT SHE WAS.****

Well, now that I've posted on many different random things. I will shower and go to bed. Because I'm exhausted and this post is not at all what I had planned. That's alright.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


I just love this picture. It totally captures so much of our personalities.

*****Things have changed. The issue has resolved enough that for now I will stay public. This could change at any time though.*****

Saturday, May 7, 2011


My blog will be going private sometime Monday night or Tuesday. Having some "issues" IRL. If you want to be added to be able to read, please leave your email in the comments. No worries, I won't publish them! Thanks for reading, it will go public again when all this is resolved.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Superficial Relationships.

I have grown accustom to these kinds of relationships. Many of my relationships these days are simple that. Superficial. The ones that aren't seem to be slowly turning into it. I don't want that. SO why am I allowing it to happen? Well, I'm sick of putting my problems on everyone else. Sure they may not mind. But, I do. I hate feeling like I'm bringing others down. It's not good for anyone.

There is always so much I want to let out. But, I'm afraid if I start I won't be able to stop. What will happen then? Well, I don't know. I haven't been there yet.

Let's just say. I want to talk. Oh, I want to spill it all out on here. But I can't. It's stuck. I'm stuck.

Why bother?

Really, why bother? I try. I fail. I try again. I fail again. And the cycle just goes on like that. I'm quite sick of it. Really. I'm sick of being a hobo. Of everyone(okay maybe not everyone) telling me who to be. Of people getting upset with me over things which are out of my control.
 I'm tired.