I don't WANT to talk about it.

Really it's that simple. I should. I NEED to. But I just don't want to talk. I don't want to smile. I don't want to exist. And then with a single text from him... My whole day turns around. It's like I dig myself into a pit everyday and he walks by and casually pulls me back out. And honestly... I'm not sure how I feel about him. But It's new. So the things I don't want to talk about can sit and fester... While I refuse to talk. And he refuses to let me be down. Really, it's that simple...