Things are rough. I ran from the blog. While yes, writing here helps. Quite a lot. I just couldn't find the words to say. Especially at Christmas time. I want to do happy post about the meaning of the season. Posts about the mounds of goodies we'll have here soon. But I can't. I don't have it in me right now.
My PTSD has been awful lately. The PET is hard. It brings up a lot of memories and emotions from the trauma that I just don't want to deal with right now. I don't have much Christmas spirit. I actually don't have any. I've felt very guilty about this. I should be able to just get through this right? I hate that I can't just get past it. And feel extremely weak because of it.
There is so much more.
Just not tonight.