I don't want to write this. It hurts. Bad. But I know you all are probably wondering where I've been the last few days.... Not here... Troy got home Friday, I'd love to say that we had a wonderful reunion. But I can't. There has been no reunion. He wouldn't see me. Then he changed his facebook picture to him with another girl. All this after a long conversation Wednesday when we "decided" to pursue a relationship. I was head over hills for him. Oh how I longed for that first kiss, to hold his hand again, to see his face. Oh how my heart is breaking into pieces. This pain is normal. I get that. But it's miserable.
"And we know it's never simple never easy, never a clean break no one here to save me. You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand. And I can't breathe without you, but I have to."