Yes two posts in the same day. Well pretty much it is almost midnight I don't know that I will have it up before "tomorrow". Tonight I hurt. I feel angry and frustrated. I don't want to carry on. Doing things is no longer fun for me. Laughing is a forced reaction, no longer a natural response. I just am not happy. I can't find it anywhere. I don't want to be alone or around people. Yet if you ask the people closest to me they'd probably tell you I'm fine. How messed up is that. I want to be happy I really do but its not gonna happen. I don't want to get outta bed anymore because everyday is the same and it's just getting harder and harder to do anything. I find myself asking why a lot more. Why me. Why do I feel this way. Why can't I be happy.
I'm getting to emotional and need to stop. *Gabby