The House That Built Me.

"The House That Built Me"

I know they say you cant go home again.
I just had to come back one last time.
Ma'am I know you don't know me from Adam.
But these handprints on the front steps are mine.
And up those stairs, in that little back bedroom
is where I did my homework and I learned to play guitar.
And I bet you didn't know under that live oak
my favorite dog is buried in the yard.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I'm someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself
if I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
Won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.

Mama cut out pictures of houses for years.
From 'Better Homes and Garden' magazines.
Plans were drawn, concrete poured,
and nail by nail and board by board
Daddy gave life to mama's dream.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I'm someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself.
If I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
Won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.

You leave home, you move on and you do the best you can.
I got lost in this whole world and forgot who I am.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I'm someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself.
If I could walk around I swear I'll leave.
Won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.



I've had a long day.
So has Wookie.
Every time he moves,
He cries.
It breaks my heart. :(
He is sleeping now though.
Under the computer desk.
I hope, for his sake,
he stays that way for awhile.


So I talked to J.
Not by choice.
But I did it.
It went well.
We are at okay status now.
She explained a lot,
I listened a lot.
But I did state what I felt.
In between the sobs.
I think she got the message.
That I'm hypersensitive that is.
Everyone needs to understand that.
It would help me, and them.


God does not care what you do,
or what works you accomplish,
as much as how you treat others,
and how you worship Him.
-My big brother, Nick.

He wrote me an email.
Right after J hurt me.
It helped,
it really did.
That's where I got this quote from.
He is a very wise man.
He is smart too.
But wise, very wise.
He is going to make,
a great husband.
To a very lucky lady.
He just has to find her.


It's getting late.
I should get Wookie to bed.
I should get me to bed.

Well Steph just called me.
So I will be up.
Josh is drunk.
He went to go get more beer.
She doesn't know what to do.
Neither do I.
*Gabby