Tuesday, November 17, 2009


Tonight, I'm feeling open. So for a few minutes I will write whats on my mind. Well first off, I cut myself again :(. my hands are awfully sore. I'm allergic to bandaids. So putting them on the cuts would just make them worse.

Stupid depression commercial just came on. I'm really not loving how often they come on. So now I'm annoyed.... But I will move on and continue to write.

I've been feeling, well I don't really have an exact word for what I've been feeling. Good for the most part. But I have moments of extreem sadness. Moments where all I want to do is curl up and cry. Moments where I don't feel like I can hold it together any longer. But somehow, I manage to get through those moments. I move on, the world keeps spinning. Or at least it feels like is spinning. I'm standing still and eveyone else is carrying on.

I'm chatting with Troy, its amazing. I miss him so much. I can't wait tell he comes home in April.

I'm tired and don't feel like blogging anymore. Maybe tomorrow! *Gabby

1 comment:

Paula71 said...

Girl I want you to know I am praying for you. Keep your head up and know you are no alone. I too suffer depression and it seems not to get too much better. I feel like the meds aren't working so well anymore. It is very hard to get up and move on each day. I suffer from chronic pain no one can find a reason for and I also have Lupus. I can sympathize with you. Please know that I check on you even though I may not comment each time. I am a follower of your blog and will always be here thinking of you.